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It is so hard to sleep at night without my partner. I miss his hugs, his gentleness and the sense of security I feel just being near him. ): It is amazing how you never know how much you need something until you are forced to ration it. In my case it is time.

Me and Graham say two of the most valuable commodities in life are Time and Information. In my case right now, I am desperate for time with my husband. I will never know how military wives do it. Around this time next week I will beyond a shadow of a doubt, come hell or high water find myself lying next to my husband. I will bask in every waking and sleeping moment I get to spend with him, because I know how special that time is to me. It has brought me so much perspective. Although being away has been heavy on my heart, I wouldn't trade the knowledge I have. (ie: information). See how it all works out. I am exchanging time for knowledge and perspective.

I look back at the times when we had LITERALLY the same Job and the same School schedule. We were inseparable and I could not imagine spending a day away from him, much less weeks or months!

I cannot say, I have it all bad. Realistically, my husband works a lot anyway. For example, I will be in Nor Cal with him for 4 days because he as a 2 week business trip near San Francisco. I am beyond excited! My husband swears I'm getting the short end of the stick being married to him. My goodness is he crazy! (He is just kidding btw!) Even jokingly, I am amazed to watch him set goals and achieve them. You ladies would not believe how kind and selfless my husband is. I really think he is incapable of a genuinely mean gesture. Sure, he will get frustrated with things, but I love how patient and gentle he treats me. I don't deserve a man as humble and caring as him.

What can I say, I miss my husband. At the end of the day, he is the most amazing thing in the world to me. Always will be. I am not sure of everything in life, but I know my husband loves me. He shows me everyday. I could not have chosen a better person to share my life with. It is not even like me to sit here and pour my emotions out, but I...just....miss him. ):

You get to a point in your life when you don't even realize there was actually a time in your life where you had no idea this person even existed. I look at how important he is to me in my life, how did I ever go on without him being apart of me? I guess it is because he always has been a part of me. I will never forget the moment I placed my eyes on him, and knew that I had been standing in the room with my husband. I cannot explain why I felt this way, how could I know within 3 seconds that he was the one. Life is amazing! I believe in love at first sight, and I absolutely believe in soul mates. I miss you...
My husband always tells me how much he loves me and that he will be dreaming about me before we go to bed at night.
How sweet is that?
He is worth it it all. (:

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